End of Week14 of intensive treatment for burnout/trauma : mixed feelings , trying to focus on the positives:
Beauty, connections, touch, togetherness, mutual support;
urban nature (cat, sky, water, potted plants) ;
memories of (Yugo diaspora) music ; dancing, singing, cycling 😊
traveling & returning …
While acknowledging other feelings too: nostalgia, homesickness, despairing about recognizable suffering…
Week15 of recovery : went out on Saturday evening, to a Serbian (ex-Yugoslav ?) cafe, with Dutch orchestra playing Hungarian & Balkan music ; happy that I got to dog-sit there ; caught the full moon on the way there & back ; & sang sad songs while cycling & crying : Vondelpark is magical when it’s empty!