undiagnosed autism at school - welcome to Bullying™. you can never leave - everyone hates you and you don’t know why - you are disappointing your parents. you have no idea how, but you know you are - people keep taking you on as a pet project - you spin between “academic genius” and “profound special needs” daily - a lady takes you out of class to play with blocks and answer mental math problems. the reason why she does this is never explained - why is everyone so mean?????? to you? to each other?????? does not compute - you try to be funny. you fail. spectacularly. - it feels like the whole world wants to kick your ass - “stop that filthy habit [that comforts you in times of stress that you don’t even realise you're doing]” - fuck