Being in Israel is evoking such complex feelings in me.
I've been here before, but for the first time, I'm thinking "...I could live here." even though I know I'd find the situation difficult, maybe even impossible.
But there's one experience I can't escape here.. I walk down the street and I don't think about being hated for being Jewish.
That weight, which really didn't exist for me until 2016 or so, simply doesn't exist here. It's a weight on me that I hadn't even realized the extent until it's not there and I'd pay a lot to have...
There's a lot I don't like here, but that feeling of liberation is one I haven't felt in almost a decade.
