Mental illness is very difficult to battle as a man. The loss of control is terrifying. I should know, I battle it myself. Some days you just want to quit but I always remind myself the pain will end and that asking for help is not a sign of weakness but of inner strength. If you are reading this and are suffering in silence please know you don't have to feel the way you do now alone. You deserve the help and you are not worthless. You have an illness, and just with any illness there should never be shame attached to it.