Imagine just lying to get what you want. Just imagine. How incredible would that be? Want something? Just make up some stuff. Just weave a fabricated tale of some imagined thing that then allows you passage directly into the life that you want. It's incredible! I wonder sometimes if my ramblings of tall tales of me being the chosen one or whatever falls into the category of lies. Perhaps I'm adept at lying. I must do it all the time! But in the real world if I committed any transgression of any kind, you wouldn't even have to ask me. I'M VERY SORRY TO INTERRUPT YOU BUT I JUST DID THIS THING THAT WASN'T TOTALLY ABOVE BOARD AND I MUST TELL YOU ABOUT IT LOUDLY AND VOCIFEROUSLY. Or.... I was thinking about stealing this item because it seems so very easy for me to do and I will break it down for you in fine detail but I will not steal it because that would be WRONG. Unless you say its ok in which case can I please just have it? It makes life very satisfying in some ways but also probably quite a lot harder. Maybe I should practice lying a bit more. And on an unrelated note...... I am collecting for ORPHANS who need a new tumble dryer. Please can I have a billion pounds. I'm not I'm lying. But look can I just have the money anyway? I don't need it. Please give the money to people who need it. But if you want to give me money - don't give me any money it's fine. I love you. Can I do something for you? X
@TheBreadmonkey For me it's the guilt of it.
@TheBreadmonkey I dunno about you but if I tell even the smallest lie it immediately shows on my face that I'm lying. I might as well have an LCD screen on my forehead that flashes up "Kara has just lied. This is not a drill".
The tumble drying needs of orphans is so often overlooked. Food, shelter and parental figures, obvious, but beyond that people just don't think.
If the musical Annie had had a number about damp school clothes on a Sunday night the world would probably be a better place now.
(For non British people, a tumble drier is what you'd probably call a laundry drier. We just like to add the word tumble because it's weirdly cute and whimsical)
@TwoClownsEating @TheBreadmonkey North American ones are formally called "tumble dryers", too, but everyone just says "dryer" or, at most, "clothes dryer".
I wasn't aware orphans have to be tumble-dried; I thought you could just hang them up in the sun. TIL!
Being in the UK, typically we don't see the sun, so we need to dry our orphans mechanically.
Nobody is going to adopt a sopping wet kid. Just think of the upholstery in the car on the journey home.
Sure, bringing stability and love to a young person in need is great, but the smell of damp car seats is pretty bad. Need to weigh up the priorities.
Is it lying or lie-ing? Why must life be so hard?
@TheBreadmonkey They both look wrong.
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It's lying. It looks wrong/weird but it the proper spelling.
One of the funny / interesting things that I think people like me probably don't talk about openly is that when I had my final ASD assessment, I talked about my inner self a bit, and talked quite openly about how I am inside (because I assumed it's a safe space and OK to discuss). And that although I am a sexual creature, with wants and needs etc., I would never fantasise about anything I consider to be 'wrong', even though I know it's entirely internal and nobody would ever know. So I'm sure I have some kinks (which, sorry, are a little pedestrian), I could never even bring myself to even THINK about stuff sexually that I consider wrong. I literally cannot have an internal fantasy that might break my moral compass of what I consider to be 'ok'. And that's pretty broad, but if something breaches that, it's a huge no-no for me. Is that normal? I feel like it should be for everyone, but appreciate it's probably not. Maybe my barriers are just set different to others. Maybe I'm lucky to just be programmed like that? Like if I were a paedophile or whatever I just would keep it all inside? But I have zero issue with most sexualities or kinks and reckon it's all fine, even if it's not my bag. But the outliers - those that breach societal norms I suppose, I reckon are fine as long as there's consensus and no one is harmed (unless they want, in which case, in most instances, fill your boots). Is that normal? I assume we're all a *little* deviant, but in a way that's nice and safe and consensual? Anyway - these are my musings. The end.
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You know, Ben I'm not sure I've ever really thought about that. I think part of the reason (maybe entirely the reason?) is because I'm not sure I really have any kinks at all. Do I? Maybe? I don't think so. I think I'm probably kind of vanilla in that regard.
Anyway, the idea of a kink that is "wrong"?... like illegal? Not even remotely in my radar. Like, I know there are people who are into rape fantasy. And I guess it's possible to let a partner know that's what you're into and they have permission to fulfill that on any given day or night but beyond that? Maybe I'm just too unimaginative. But illegal stuff, pain, doing it in public, at the office, peeing on me... *slowly shakes me head* Nope. Doesn't do a thing for me. If anything, completely turns me off.
To be fair, I suppose there are some heteronormative, very straight people who would think having sex with me, a trans girl, falls into a kink. Nooo. That's kinda weird to ponder. I could be someone's kink. 😳
So I didn't really think of trans sex as a 'wrong' category but I guess that might fall into some people's red zones (NOT LIKE THAT). I suppose sexy time with trans people must fall into outlier territory with heteronormies. It's not something I've particularly explored in my old brainium, but that wasn't what I was aiming for. I've definitely talked here before about being surprised at being attracted to some trans peeps - not as an oddity but because I'd not really been exposed to it (not like that) before, so it was interesting to be to find my internal world challenged a bit. This feels like I'm intellectually trying to chat you up. Sorry. BUT ALSO NOT SORRY YOU'RE BLOODY GORGEOUS. Sorry I'm just messing about a bit. I don't mean to be a creep. Xx
@TheBreadmonkey fwiw, I think this is normal. I’m the same.
By the by I knew a guy at university who once confessed he thought he was attracted to children, but knew this was wrong and therefore was resigned to a life repressing this. Pretty intense thing to hear from a 20 year old. I really had no idea what to say, but it struck me as incredibly sad. Dark, maybe, but sad. He was (otherwise) a nice guy. I hope he found peace.
@TheBreadmonkey this seems like something out of @thedailytism.com /pos
