A lot of people think, self esteem is given. It’s not though. There are very few moments in my life when I genuinely thought that I’m actually a good person who contributes to society as much as she can. In reality, I have to forcefully remind myself - “you’re not as bad or worthless as you think you are.” Then my asshole brain would chime in - “you’re not that great either.” So it’s a constant struggle
@farah
I find that I have to earn it,
to prove to myself that I
deserve self esteem.
And it takes ages;
I did not start to believe in it
until after I turned 50