I mean I just don't think you're understanding how personal the fear is for me right? I'm not afraid of sleeping because "I won't be producing enough for society." Staying up for 24 hours straight playing videogames is fine with me because I chose to spend my time that way.

When you sleep? You don't get a choice. So sleep makes me nervous because it's time running out of MY hourglass - not because "I coulda been making the line go up."