Prior to understanding I'm autistic, my life was a strange combination of not fitting in yet trying to fit in, and not bothering to fit in. After my self-realization, I've slowly worked on getting rid of the trying part. I never really fitted in and the more I've just been myself, the better I've felt. I'm unique and now I'm more comfortable than ever letting it show. It's also tied to being non-binary and understanding what types of clothes and accessories I want to wear. Now the main thing is that it makes me feel good. I know my style makes me stand out from the crowd. It's not that I'm done thinking what others think about me but it plays a substantially smaller role than before.