CW: #EmotionalUnpacking #Sexuality

While talking about poly relationships this evening, my observant ace girlfriend pointed out that just last summer my sexuality would've made bunnies blush, but these last few months I've been leaning more tortoise than hare.

I gave it some thought, and I believe there are a few things at play.

Thing the first—and most obvious (to me)—I gained a few pounds. Not much, but just enough to make a few pairs of my already skintight jeans too tight to wear comfortably. The funny thing about unrealistic beauty standards is that you can know they're bullshit, and that they're designed to make you feel bad so you'll buy more shit, and that you wouldn't hold anyone else to them...but that doesn't make you go any easier on yourself when you fail to live up to them.

Thing the deuce—I made a friend a little while back, and the relationship got pretty sexually charged. We ended up spending a couple nights together, having sex a few times, and taking a bunch of hot photos...then they kinda ghosted me. There was more to it than that, but the short is that I felt pretty burned, and I've only done a few nude shots since then.

Thing the trois—the US is pretty fucked right now, and the creeping taint has kinda taken a toll on my mood. It takes more energy to just exist day to day, and the result is that I'm being less social—I haven't been to any social events lately, I haven't gone dancing, and I'm even having trouble rallying to go to protests. I'm sure a lot of folx are feeling similarly.

Finally, I've noticed a sharp drop in flirting around here, which I suspect is a result of the general tone of doom in the air.

...

So that's why I haven't been posting new adult content, or giving #AltAfterDark the love it deserves, or going on new dates, or posting #FediRailed Lovense links, or starting punnuendo threads lately.

That all said, I still have two amazing partners who I love very much, and a fantastic sex-life—which is plenty. But a little more flirting wouldn't hurt 😉

CW: #EmotionalUnpacking #Sexuality

While talking about poly relationships this evening, my observant ace girlfriend pointed out that just last summer my sexuality would've made bunnies blush, but these last few months I've been leaning more tortoise than hare.

I gave it some thought, and I believe there are a few things at play.

Thing the first—and most obvious (to me)—I gained a few pounds. Not much, but just enough to make a few pairs of my already skintight jeans too tight to wear comfortably. The funny thing about unrealistic beauty standards is that you can know they're bullshit, and that they're designed to make you feel bad so you'll buy more shit, and that you wouldn't hold anyone else to them...but that doesn't make you go any easier on yourself when you fail to live up to them.

Thing the deuce—I made a friend a little while back, and the relationship got pretty sexually charged. We ended up spending a couple nights together, having sex a few times, and taking a bunch of hot photos...then they kinda ghosted me. There was more to it than that, but the short is that I felt pretty burned, and I've only done a few nude shots since then.

Thing the trois—the US is pretty fucked right now, and the creeping taint has kinda taken a toll on my mood. It takes more energy to just exist day to day, and the result is that I'm being less social—I haven't been to any social events lately, I haven't gone dancing, and I'm even having trouble rallying to go to protests. I'm sure a lot of folx are feeling similarly.

Finally, I've noticed a sharp drop in flirting around here, which I suspect is a result of the general tone of doom in the air.

...

So that's why I haven't been posting new adult content, or giving #AltAfterDark the love it deserves, or going on new dates, or posting #FediRailed Lovense links, or starting punnuendo threads lately.

That all said, I still have two amazing partners who I love very much, and a fantastic sex-life—which is plenty. But a little more flirting wouldn't hurt 😉