I don’t know why I feel so guilty for taking care of myself. The doctor is suggesting that I go get tested at the ER rather than being referred by her and having to wait weeks, and I know that if they catch something it will be worth it. But if they don’t, it’s like am I wasting their time and my own and not being there for my team today? But I know I can’t really be there for them if I don’t take care of myself.