was woken up after not realizing i had fallen asleep and had agreed to meet someone this morning. i still have half an email to finish writing to emacs-devel about how to fix the configure script. i am completely miserable in every way. i utterly despise that the reason hash functions are terrible is because they're not created for hashing.
i hate that the most rational explanation for rust's fanatical re-enactment of reflections on trusting trust is that cargo (and tree-sitter) is a machine to generate hash collisions. i hate that this sounds like an insane conspiracy theory. do you know how much i wish i could find a better explanation for such a lengthy string of backdoors? i wish anyone else took this seriously and i wish anyone believed me
most of all i hate that we can never live in peace. i hate how much sleep i have lost from the most craven people in human history using my build processes as their pawns. just let me sleep
going back to sleep now and crying. i don't want to have to solve these fucking problems it's so cruel and unfair that literally nobody else cares so i am forced to doing it for them
given the infrastructure that has been created to generate hash collisions i consider SHA-256 likely cracked for practical purposes and don't understand it enough to make claims about SHA-512. sha-3 is a linear feedback shift register. i will have to solve this myself too and i hate that. sleeping now too