so the only potentially not-awful thing the awful dr last week did was to write me prescriptions for two meds. one of them is currently being investigated for causing many suicides and serious mental health changes (he did not mention this, ofc); given my family history and my tendency to react to meds, i won't be trying that one.

but i decided to try the other because things are so very bad and

it's made things worse.

so.

that's good then.

(i am not coping well i am really really not coping well rn)