My resilience and mental/emotional health skills have been better than ever, largely thanks to years of therapy. But that's not without challenges.
In some ways, stresses at work are harder than processing current events. I have no influence on global events, and they target the parts of "who I am" that I cannot control 鈥斅爓hich sucks, but it's something I've spent decades learning how to continuously process that day by day.
At work, I'm almost always struggling with Schr枚dinger's Discrimination: Is this person treating me badly because they had a bad day, because I did something wrong, or because they're discriminating against me? Should I internalize this as my mistake, externalize this as their mistake, or which anti-asshole measures should I deploy?
It takes a lot of energy each day to bring patience and compassion and open curiosity 鈥斅爓hich, as often as it's rewarded by building mutually supportive working relationships, is almost as often brutally punished by the endless torment of being the whipping girl who can never address the root cause of their animosity.