However, at this time this principle is tearing my soul to pieces!!! Because the Torah tells me that no matter my personal views and feelings, and no matter the sacrifices I personally made to not be part of the genocide machine, and no matter the things I've done to fight it, my faith tells me that I am personally responsible for the unspeakable crimes that my kinfolk are committing in #Gaza (and the West Bank). I know that it is not really how you're supposed to think in an individualist society, and frankly I'll fight any goy who holds diaspora Jews responsible for Israeli crimes or scapegoats Jews or Israelis.
But before Hashem my soul is responsible for those crimes because all Israel are responsible for one another, and there's nothing that I can do as an individual that can change that. It's too late. All I can do is keep bashing myself against the wall of stone hearts, do anything I can to stop the madness that has consumed my people, the idolatrous worship of state and land and violence that demands endless sacrifice of blood.
And in the meantime we are pushing Hashem farther and farther away with this endless idolatry in Jewish clothing, this incomprehensible horror of death and fire and pain that we have opened up to pour out our own anguish into, this Chilul Hashem of atrocities committed in His name, this anger and hate with which we are starving those babies in Gaza, which is our anger and hate at Him for having let us suffer; and our thirst for power and mastery, which is our rebellion against Him and rejection of the faith in His protection.
We have to stop, but I don't know what to do. My heart and my strength are broken.